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TRANSMISSION 1

by des hume

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1.
Crush 02:18
I'd tell you what I want But I don't think that you think of me The way I'm obsessing over you I know I could be wrong, could be living in a fantasy And we don't talk much at all But be honest babe, when I tell you that All I ever do is think about you Do you ever dream about my touch? All I ever do is think about you Is this love or is this just a crush? I'd tell you what I want But the deepest part of me is hoping you've known all along Don't be shy, I'm waiting I'm not a girl, not a boy But I'll be whatever you want honey A thing for you to toy with As long as you don't pass me on All I ever do is think about you Do you ever dream about my touch? All I ever do is think about you Is this love or is this just a crush?
2.
SIN 03:05
I was aiming for graceful But that came undone Holding out for something better that will never come And I thought I was stronger than this But fuck I was wrong Pathetic I'm falling apart over something and I never had it So where does this leave us now? All I need in this life of sin, is someone to lose myself within Oh no…am I asking too much again? I want it all or I don't want none But lately I will take anyone Hold me, we can be lonely as one Fuck: is that all we can do? I thought that there was something more between me and you I don't wanna sound ungrateful But its not what I'd choose You said "I'm deeper than a body but I'm not giving myself to you" All I need in this life of sin, is someone to lose myself within Oh no…am I asking too much again? I want it all or I don't want none But lately I will take anyone Hold me, we can be lonely as one I just wanna drown in somebody new All I need in this life of sin, is someone to lose myself within Oh no…am I asking too much again? I want it all or I don't want none But lately I will take anyone Hold me, we can be lonely as one

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TRANSMISSION 1 is a double A-side with the following tracklisting:

A1 – Crush

A2 - SIN

Crush was inspired by a person I went on one date with, who became erratic and obsessive when I politely declined seeing them again. It started with texts – flurries of them, for weeks on end – that began with confusion and ended angrily when I stopped responding to them. Since that experience, I’ve read things like ‘I love Dick’ by Chris Krauss and revisited moments when I had been the one receiving, what I felt was, ‘out of the blue’ rejection. Feelings are weird, illogical, and overwhelming and I’ve had times where I’ve spiralled into obsessive thinking. Some of the lyrics are things I’ve felt on my own, others are near direct quotes from texts I was sent.

SIN is about trying to find love on the internet, which is a whole other conversation that is too exhausting to rehash. Let’s have a drink and talk about it, or just listen to the song. Your choice.

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released September 13, 2019

The songs were recorded, mixed and mastered at home by me. The cover photograph is my own, and the layout is by Haute Monde Studio which does quite good work if you are in the market for that sort of thing.

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